TRUST.........

"The worse part about being lied to is that you weren't worth the truth."

-mishaela

 

Why do people think that it is ok to lie. I don't understand that. I know that I am not perfect, but I really try hard not to lie to someone. Especially someone I love. Trust is another huge thing in a marriage. But today I realized that I am not worth the truth.

I just want someone in my life that loves me for me and thinks that I am worth the truth. I am so tired of the lies.

I am going to get this out. If your husband is into porn. Get him help. Don't let him tell you that he isn't addicted. Because they are. I have been listening to my husband for the past 5 months tell me that he isn't addicted. I thought after 5 months that I could maybe see if we could try to build a relationship. Come to find out, he is still looking at porn. Domination videos. Why? I thought that maybe I was worth the truth. That I was worth fighting for. But I guess not.

My counselor said to find balance in my life. Well I getting rid of one of things that make my life not balanced. I am not falling for it again. I am done being hurt! I can't live me life being hurt and not trusting. I love my husband, but I can't trust him to be honest about his addiction. So I will have to be done with my marriage.